I was a member of a very well known online job search community. I signed-up last year with a vision to land a good paying job. I was a fresh graduate and trying to engage in the technical world since I am a product of a technical school. I received so many job update from them including those that are out of the country of shall I say abroad. Sadly, I was out of dedication and focus to work those days because I was afraid to face someone for an interview. Sounds crazy right? I don’t know why is that I am feeling fears on such things. I was a student trainee that time and my co-trainees were trying to push me to grab the opportunity. Most of the time I argue with them and I even disappoint them until it reached to a point that none of them was convincing me anymore. It was fine that time because I have still some earning from our allowances and I wasn’t thinking of today. Now, everything seems to be out of my reach. The job opportunities, my friends, and many other things had done away. Currently I am feeling out of luck. I am so sad…..